Figured I'd blog thru my lunch :o)  (fasting)

Well, My weekend went alright, had family visit! And it's been a while since anyone has stopped by..So it made me feel good, to clean up and actually get into some clean clothes...I usually stay in my pj's when i can

I've been stuck in this horrible kinda funk~

Pessimistic- or PMS??? When my mom and Sis stopped by this weekend, I was thrilled untill I hear they're going dancing, Which is fine! But where was my invite??? Come to find out it was to celebrate a b-day party and tons of my family went... it woud've been nice to be invited, even though thats not my place...And the thing was they didnt even mentioned it, they were totally quite when they said it, and had this looked as if they were scared if i asked what it was all about...Hell I'm not the type to club, but they could've been honest.....This isn't the first time I've been left in the wind while my familia gets together...But I just feel missed place?  It's like since I have a different perspective on things and a different path in life that i go by,  people tend to keep there distance and I guess feel like I wouldnt be Interested in what there doining... And this is Bugging me!

They never think to ask, as if there scared I might actually go and I guess be a burden or worry i jmight be to different ?? I'm not to sure why my family seems to be distant with me? And now that I have kids it kinda hurts that there being so " clicky" I guess would be the word?? And i totally feel left out. I'm hoping this feeling will past and better days will come. But, when i hear they all went out to picinic, (family functions) and not be told...Just feels so damn cold..and to be from family...sucks!!! I guess this is why I should stop and Cherish mines....And realize how ignorant and shady pepole really can be even family...

Note: to raise my children to be conserderation of all peoples feelings..

Well,

So far so good...all i've had is ruffles...and I totally gave in to those! anywho,

Intake

2 cups of coffee

1 bag of ruffles 450 cals

Total: about 550 as of 4:10 pm....post later some thinspo! :o)

Stay strong my ladies!